Diary - July 31st, 2026
Going on my mental health walk and trying to make the process of some sort of recovery a collaborative one.
I live with two other people, it's impossible for my mental health troubles to not become somewhat of a group issue. It's hard to get over the guilt of burdening other people, but it's necessary in letting yourself try to get better.
I don't know if I'm really over that hurdle.
I do feel like I want to live. Without being concerned about accomplishments or getting there fast enough, but just to enjoy, to learn, to experience. It feels like a hard thing to allow myself to want after only ever doing what other people expected me to do.
It's hot outside today, but this morning was pleasant. I drank an iced tea, I played a video game, and now I'm writing this. It's a decent start.